Thoughts for the day...

Lately I (Anna) have been struggling with my negative attitude and frustration towards God and life in general. Derrick and I's health situations had just sucked all positivity out of me. But, recently, I had a great prayer time. I just simply requested God to refill me with hope and love for Him and life. He did just that. I turned on the TV to watch the news, and instead, there was a program with someone preaching. Typically, TV evangelists don't do a lot for me, but this morning verses that I needed right then just began spilling out of this woman's mouth. As if the whole show was just for me. My favorite was Psalm 27:14: Wait and hope for and expect the Lord. Be brave and of a good courage. let your heart be stout and endearing. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord. Along with this verse, she read Isaiah 40:31 and Job 14:14. My heart just softened completely. I immediately prayed for forgiveness for my attitude. I know God's got this (and all other aspects of my life, my husbands life, and the world in general) under control. He knows what is going to happen. It is my job to wait for and hope for Him to renew my health and the pain-free life I had gotten used to. I had a new faith that was (is) going to happen. Even if it doesn't happen until I am in heaven, it WILL happen. I am of a new faith and love for life since then. Life is truly amazing. All the things I can do, even when is pain, are miraculous. I have an amazing husband and life with him. I have a completely fantastic church family willing to help and pray for Derrick and I as much as need be. Derrick and I both have truly great families full of blessings to us. I am completely thankful for life around me. I pray to no longer feel that empty again. I want to be used for God and His glory. That is impossible if I am completely focused on me and my woes.